Maybe I do believe it.  All these 'meant-to-be' stuffs.  Why not believe it, really? Who wouldn't want more romance in their lives?
Maybe it's up to us to make it happen.  To show up and be meant to each other.

Grey's Anotomy S9-7

Time is priceless. Yet it costs us nothing. You can do anything you want with it but to own it.  You can spend it, but you can't keep it. Once you lost it, there is no getting it back.  It's just gone. 

It could be scary to find out that you have been wrong about something.  But we can't be afraid to change our minds. To accept that things are different. That they will never be the same.  For better or for worse. We have to be willing to give up what we used to believe. The more we're willing to accept what is and not what we thought, we will find ourselves exactly where we belong.  

Intuitions, always have our best interests at heart. But too often, we become distracted by fears, doubts, or own stubborn hopes, to refuse to listen. 

Because when you know who you are, it's easier to know what you are about.  And ultimately, what you really need.   --Grey's Anatomy S9,E4

Sometime there is nothing more exciting than getting back what you had and lost. - Dextor

when we follow our hearts, when we choose not to settle, A weight lifts, the sun shines little brighter.  And for a brief moment at least, we find a little peace.    Grey's Anatomy. S9-3
 

• ‎'Slumps are like a soft bed. They're easy to get into and hard to get out of.'
  Johnny Bench.

emotion

'perception is the key to transformation'

'how you feel determines your view to the world'

'it would be a terrible thing not able to trust your own mind.' -Fringe

 each choice we make creates a new reality.  

matters are energy waiting to happen.

the only way we grow

'letting go is the easy part. It's the moving on that's painful. so sometimes we fight.  to keep everything the same.  but things can't stay the same. at some point you have to let go. because no matter how painful it is, it's the only way we grow '

'We are all alone in this world. Anybody tells you otherwise is lying to you or trying to sell you something.

Grey's anatomy

Rather than imagine a new life, I pretended about the old one.

But along the way I have made more mistakes than that one. Probably the biggest of them was not accepting the inevitability of change more than twenty years ago.  Rather than imagine a new life, I pretended about the old one.  And for that I have surely paid a price.  In my darker moods, I feel the cost has been too high, that fate has exacted an unfair revenge.  But most of the time, when I think of how much worse it all could have turned out, I realize I have been lucky.  It does not matter, though.  I am going on.  I have never doubted that.

The Innocent. Scot Turow.

the voice in your head

you can seek the advice of others, surround yourself with trusted advisers.but in the end, the decision is always yours. and yours alone. And when it's time to act and you are all alone, with your back to the wall, the only voice that matters is the one in your head. the one that telling you what you probably already knew.  the one that is almost always right.

Grey's Anatomy

The Innocent

In “Innocent,” he’s exploring the many ways in which, time after time, we fail to under­stand ourselves, in which we miss or misinterpret the evidence that could tell us who we are. “If we are always a mystery to ourselves,” Anna asks at the end of Sabich’s latest ordeal, “then what is the chance of fully understanding anybody else?” That’s a novelist’s question as much as it is a lawyer’s.

NY Times book review on "The Innocent"


Nat reflects on “the screwy epistemology of the courtroom, where the million daily details of a life suddenly get elevated to evidence of murder,” and in this he may be speaking for Turow himself: a practicing attorney who appears to have become more preoccupied with the ambiguities of the law (which are many) than its certainties (which are few). The effect of spending a lifetime in the halls of justice, his novels suggest, is — or should be — a growing sense of the law’s incapacity to explain anything important about human folly. Justice may not be entirely blind, but it appears to have cataracts. It turns everything fuzzy and dim. Worst of all, it doesn’t know how to tell a story.

And that, in the end, may be the reason Turow continues to write novels, to have his bit on the side while apparently remaining faithful to his long-term relationship with the law. It’s clear in “Innocent” how different young lawyers like Anna and Nat are from older ones, who still have their ambitions but have been relieved of most of their illusions. Legal lifers like Sabich and Molto have seen too much and say, at times, too little. They’ve become cautious, reluctant to speak or act for fear of muddying the truth again. They play everything so close to the vest, keep their own counsel so rigorously, that they’ve become, in a way, strangers to themselves. It’s terribly sad when, at the end of “Innocent,” Sabich begins to speak for himself once more and what he has to say is: “Accepting the truth is often the hardest task human beings face.” (He’s also an epistemologist, of sorts.) By some odd process, Sabich’s repetition compulsion has led him to a kind of rueful clarity about himself, a belated sense of who he is and who, all along, he has been. 

重要

年紀漸長，學到的是:重要的事越來越少，但它們越來越重要。

日日捨

好友發起日日捨活動，清理家裡。我覺得很有趣，加以響應。
不過第三日，我就說了一句名言: 沒東西可丟。

過去21年來，我搬了15.次家。其中三次美國到台灣，二次台灣到美國。另十次則在美國大陸累積哩程。目前，除了日用衣物，廚房浴室裡用品之外，只餘丟了會動搖"人"本的：二箱日記(小學三年級起的作文，週記，及長大後日記)，二箱相本及信件，一箱各類有紀念性小物的雜物箱。
真的，沒太多"留著以後可能會用到，還蠻好的"物件。

想來，我捨物的本事，修得差不多。但盼捨情的功夫，能早日長進。

burning bridges

'There are a great deals of happiness coming from burning bridges.'--- Dan Gilbert

pain

“Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self, so therefore, trust the physician and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility.” - Kahlil Gibran

Courage

‎'Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying," I will try again tomorrow."'

Leap

'The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be... because of all I may become I will close my eyes and Leap!' ---Mary Anne Radmacher

'Chronic pain sufferers often lead empty lives when pain destroys, or all but destroys, any chance for normalcy. Patients' family lives, careers, relationships, and leisure activities become ruled by pain. Some patients are able to rise above the pain and manage to carry on a facade of normal life. Others become vegetables because of medications, and they often lose their ability to be involved with other people and in social activities.'

'sometimes ball just bounces funny'

'sometimes ball just bounces funny'

emptiness

'the anxiety is age old. the fear of being alone. Once you've felt the comfort of society, you worry about losing it. So to remind yourself of how you're connected, you gather things around. And you cling to them, not so you won't lose them, or lose what makes you you, but so you won't lose the connections they represent. The fear is of emptiness — but of emptiness inside us, not of empty rooms.'

http://www.npr.org/2012/02/20/147041182/our-media-ourselves-are-we-headed-for-a-matrix

http://www.wired.com/beyond_the_beyond/2011/06/augmented-reality-e-m-forster-the-machine-stops-1909/

live as if this is all there is

live with intention.  walk to the edge. 
listen hard. practice wellness. play with abandon. 
laugh 
choose with no regret.
continue to learn.
appreciate your friends. 
do what you love.
live as if this is all there is.    --- Mary Anne Radmacher

no mortal can keep a secret.

“No mortal can keep a secret. If the lips are silent, he chatters with his fingertips; betrayal oozes out of him at every pore.”
― Sigmund Freud

denial

“Delay is the deadliest form of denial.” -----C. Northcote Parkinson

compliment

F: What's he like?
E: He is different. From anybody I know.
F: Different is good. From where I am from. The highest compliment for a person, is to say that they are down to earth, grounded.  I hate it. It drives me nuts.

---The Tourist

The Tourist

Elise: Invite me to dinner, Frank.
Frank: Would you like to join me for dinner?
Elise: Women don't like questions.
Frank: Join me for dinner.
Elise: Too demanding.
Frank: Join me for dinner?
Elise: Another question.
Frank: I am having dinner. If you care to join me. ---- The Tourist

 It's the Roman God Janus. My mother wants to teach me that everyone has two sides, good side and bad side. Past and the future. That we must embrace both in someone we love. And I tried. 

shoes

In fact, sometimes it's hard to walk in single girls shoes.  That's why we need really special ones now and then, to make the walk a little fun.

  -- sex and the city

prayer.

I beg you to hurry, for the sake for my sanity.

In youth, we learn. In age, we understand.  

bottom line

Don't ever show your bottom line. Ever. People are preys.